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Jul 14, 2012
@ 4:42 pm
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Sat. Last Day…..anxiety building up….

my return to the world is racing at me 150 at mp . My chosen exile is over and I am freaking out so bad………………. I am so messed up in my mind, Really WTF ???

******RE-READ when I NEED TO REMEMBER TO DO IT********

I need a massive step back, to get a clear view of where I’m standing…… I just can not think clearly in the middle of it….as the way it is now….I need to make it different for myself…..  

I need to figure out which way is up, I am that turned around…want real truth. What is the real truth and what is just how much is what Ive made it?  fictional logic in my efforts to understand me and my life…..

I keep thinking about that perspectives box. I need guidelines something to refer to when I need to look for logic to stay on course.  I cant relay on my own thinking, to many emotions that trigger snap re-actions and ideas that lead me to tangle me up more in what traps me……..I need to stop this, slam on the brakes and deal with it in a better way…      

I need calm and peace this the journey toward it…………. 

 how did I end up at this point witj my , I chose what I did with my time and now I ll pay for it………