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Jul 21, 2012
@ 3:38 pm
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Sat…lookin back….

Thurs and Friday busy with catch up and life to NEED to dones, (like it or nots)……. Okay days, muscles still hurt but so much better than before………..tired today….. 

Posting Wed. PM late, now needed a lot of reflection to put into words, and less cursing….. pasted below…….. 

WED PM…… @7PM

Something happened today that made me think of the next time and what I would do… I came up with …………
Words can never be unheard once they are said out loud.
Sometimes we forget what we hear….we take in so much.
Nasty hurtful words by people we love never become the forgotten ones…….
Later when we hurt they become echoes on replay in our minds……
and the pain we felt then feels fresh and bleeds. ………

When you have an negative interaction with someone you love that left you so fucking hurt and pissed at how they treated and talked to you ..you wanted to look them in the face and yell……..

WTF??

I don’t deserve the way your treating me….

just stop, whatever is twisting you up so much,

do not say another word…….

Now back the fuck off and keep your nastiness / hate to yourself …………

Until your calm and can talk to me,

like you don’t sound like you wished I was dead….

So……. Go calm down, Take out the nasty anger out…….

figure out what your wanting me to understand and come back later
and talk to me and we will deal/ talk about it…..

Oh yeah, you might want to give me a little time to calm down too….

right now, I feel very stupid for loving you so much ………..

and Im fighting so hard not to just be nasty as hell back at you ……

You’ll know when,

I wont be cussing and mumbling under my breathe,

and trying to wipe away tears before they fall.