Sun…….I really want to just sleep, so tired ………….

Yesterday morning was okay,……. then,…..the anxiety started popping up like nasty little fires, little sparks, then suddenly many tiny flames …..Rational Attention to snuff this one, that one….shit, WTF? It lasted all day……..PM It chilled alittle but sleep last nite,….. nope,… at least no long spans………up and down…. ..I did try, so around 7am I finally crashed,……… its 3pm, up taking meds now………………….. then REALLY need to do alot of work around here……and Attempt some…….. Team Clean Up……. time in the garage (its always been a touchy issue, comments and attitude hazard zone) …………..Gonna try to stay calm and just do it, but its gonna be like 100 degrees in there….need the fans and a cold cloth around my neck/shoulders….. dreading this so mega……Its so many decisions fuck, fuck and fuck…..Decisions are so hard to make,………………………… Okay shit stop working myself up………chill….breathe… try, to do it….see what happens……..

At least its Sun….,but I’ve gotta get my routine back in line…summer vaca is over soon and Life will be Extreme Hell if I don’t…….